第３９掘：職業聖女と只の聖女 (Part1)

第３９掘：職業聖女と只の聖女 (Part1)

I am now in Yuki-sama's room at the inn.

To fulfill their conditions, to conceive a child...

But Asurin-chan, Firia-chan, and also Rabiris and Ratz are there.

"You're persistent, aren't you? I told you it was just a pretext. Why do you come here knowing that?"

Yuki-sama tells me that I don't need to fulfill the conditions.

"No, Yuki-sama. You are mistaken."

"About what?"

"Rabiris and Ratz accept it as a pretext, but Milly-san... Kaya-san... those two will take that pretext at face value and tell me to kill me. It's useless for you to try to stop them. They aren't in love with you. They are just a convenient substitute. A replacement for the happiness they lost. And you, in their stead, need to defile me. If you don't, they will break..."

When I say that, Yuki-sama's expression becomes serious.

Naturally. He is being too optimistic.

Human hearts are not simple things, yet he misunderstands, thinking they will obey him just because he freed them from slavery.

In the end, as Yuki-sama himself said, he is just a human.

In the current situation, the cooperative system of this dungeon will soon collapse, centered around Milly-san and Kaya-san, because of my foreign presence.

"Haa, so? To satisfy Milly and the others, I need to have a child with Rurua?"

"Yes. Their desire is for my dignity as a human to be defiled."

"Me, playing the defiler... As for me, I only want to be with women I love."

Saying that, Yuki-sama hugs Rabiris and Ratz, one in each arm.

It's a strange sight, somehow.

Yuki-sama usually tries to deflect their affections as much as possible, but today he is being proactive.

"...Rurua-sama, you're quite something... Yuki wouldn't have a child for something like that."

"That's right... To think of my brother like that. Well, in a way, it's only natural that you were removed from the top position in the Ritea Holy Kingdom."

I didn't understand what they said at first.

However, after a little time, my mind began to comprehend.

Why did they need to say that now?

Why did I have to be insulted?

I had no other choice but to do this.

For the sake of order, for the peace of everyone here, I am offering myself to Yuki-sama!!

"...Yuki, you've lost your appetite. Please explain it to Rurua-sama."

"I'll take Asurin-chan and Firia-chan with me, so you can do it without any worries, big brother."

Both of them reluctantly released Yuki-sama's arms and left the room carrying Asurin and Firia.

"...Yuki-sama, would you please explain?"

After a period of silence in the room, now that we were alone, I broke the silence and spoke to Yuki-sama.

"Even now, you still don't realize... Stop calling me 'sama' already. Honestly, that respectful yet loveless way of speaking, without any genuine feeling, just makes me wilt."

Yuki's words, which implied no intention of violating me, disturbed my heart.

Why, even though this body is supposed to be excellent as a woman.

My appearance, my education...

"Wh-what!! I'm calling you that out of respect!! What's so fun about denying me like that!! Are you intending to let Milly and the others kill me as I am!! I don't want to die!! I don't want to die!! Is it wrong to want to live, even if it means groveling to you!? Look, my breasts are big, you can grope them and do as you please!! ...Please. Impregnate me."

I strip naked in front of him and beg.

It's been four days since Milly and the others set their conditions.

After talking with Seraria-sama, the houses for the immigrants have been set up, and construction is underway for other facilities.

Yes, I still have not received Yuki-sama's seed... no, he has never once directed his lust towards me.

If it continues like this, I will surely be killed by Milly. Not directly, but perhaps by being driven out of here, or indirectly...

"Rurua, what are you planning to do from now on? No, what are you planning to live for? All I can say right now is that having a child to live won't mean anything. Do you understand?"

"What do you... mean? If I conceive Yuki's child, I'll be safe...?"

"For now. Milly and the others won't be completely convinced. It's just a temporary measure. What? Do you really think that having a child will improve all your relationships with Milly and the others?"

"That..."

Of course not. If there were such an easy way to improve things, I wouldn't choose to conceive a child with a man I don't love.

"...Haa, Rurua, you only had ability."

"What!! Do you know how much, how much I accumulated!! To reach the position of Saintess!!"

"Yeah, that's why you had the ability."

"...What are you trying to say?"

"Rurua, have you ever fallen down? It hurts quite a bit. If you're not careful, you might scrape your knee and bleed. When I was a child, I used to cry a lot."

"Are you saying I'm like a child who falls and scrapes her leg and bleeds? Don't be ridiculous!! Do you think that's comparable!! I, I was abandoned by my homeland!! Why, why am I going through this!! Help me!! Hey!! Help me!!"

Tears spill from my eyes. I can't stop them anymore.

I pour out everything I've been holding back onto Yuki-sama.

"It's the same. No, in a way. There are children who endure the pain and stand up without crying. That's far more admirable, isn't it? First of all, realize the meaning of being compared to a child. Rurua, you know it too, don't you? That what you should be doing now isn't having a child with me. Realize the meaning of standing up on your own already. Elju will take action without anyone telling her to! You might not know, Rurua, but Elju was also subjected to terrible abuse by Milly when she met her. What do you think Elju did then? She bowed her head. Saying, 'I'm sorry.' That's not something anyone can do. It's truly something only Elju can do. That's why Seraria cherishes Elju."

Did Elju-sama also go through something like that...? But by accepting Milly and the others' demands, I would atone for my sins...

"Stop acting like a tragic heroine in a play already. No, even a tragic heroine is better. At least she holds the hand of the prince who came to save her."

"...Apologizing... it might not go as well as Elju-sama's, and I don't have the courage for that."

"I know, Rurua isn't Elju. And you're mistaken, but Elju wasn't forgiven by Milly and the others. You know that too, right? You saw Elju desperately bowing her head to Milly and the others during the meeting the other day."

"So Elju-sama is also atoning?"

"...Thank you for that negative answer. Well, ask Elju for the true answer. Since she's the one doing it, she'll tell you the real answer."

"...What are you trying to say? I'm not Elju-sama!! I'm too scared to apologize!! If I displease them even slightly, I could be driven out at any moment!!"

"That's why I told you. Stop acting like a tragic heroine. If you play that role, Rurua, there are plenty of people in this group like Milly, Kaya, Rabiris, and many others. But none of them are playing the role of a tragic heroine. Especially Milly must want to cry out. But she isn't. Do you know why?"

"...Nothing will change even if I do that."

"That's right. In the end, even if someone says they'll help you, it's meaningless if you don't take their hand. Rurua, for the past few days, you've just been crying out. 'I'm so unhappy.' 'It can't be helped.' And so on. You didn't try to have a child to live. You tried to have a child to be allowed to live. If these words sound the same, you're in a bad state, you know?"

"...What I should be doing isn't conceiving a child...?"