021 Beyond the line of death, and the true path
"Out... Out it is..."
I made it.
I lived, and emerged from the forest.
According to the map, there was still 15 kilometers to the nearest settlement—the fortress.
The name of the place was no longer "Eastern Demon Realm." It was now the northern grasslands of the Ringpil Continent, the Rafid region.
I staggered forward without stopping, climbing up a small hill.
Looking back, the vast forest I had walked through—no, mostly run through—stretched out before me.
"I made it... I survived..."
Tears fell naturally.
It wasn't over yet. My life in this other world had just begun. That was all.
But I had survived.
I could begin.
From here.
From here, indeed.
"Ping pong pan! It's time for the announcement of the total viewership ranking for isekai transferees!"
Suddenly, a voice echoes in my head.
The same voice I heard when I obtained that glowing flower and when I learned to create undead.
Viewership ranking... So they were actually counting that.
"Congratulations! Transferee Number 1,000, 'Kurose Hikaru.' You have claimed the top honor in the first viewership ranking! As a prize for winning, you will receive three points!"
Hearing "first place" didn't stir much emotion in me—I just thought, "Well, that's to be expected."
I've been risking my life on adventures for ten days straight.
I have no idea how the other transferees are doing.
But I was certain that I was suffering the worst fate of them all.
"And now! Starting today, you'll be able to receive messages from viewers on Earth! Please check the status board—the mailbox has been added.
I thought with a billion viewers, we'd be flooded with messages, but it seems the divine being only selects those with strong intentions, so the volume isn't overwhelming.
If used wisely, we might even learn about conditions on the other side.
When I opened the status board, I confirmed it had increased by three points.
I can't help but think, 'If only it had happened a little sooner...' but in the end, I'm still alive.
A fortress-like structure is visible in the distance.
There are no signs of monsters nearby, and the breeze feels pleasant.
'Huh...? Mail...? Wait, what? Eeeh?'
"A number, ①, appeared in the inbox—just as I thought that, suddenly, emails started arriving in rapid succession, pinging one after another, swelling to hundreds in the blink of an eye.
It was supposed to be divine selection, but with such a large denominator, the numbers naturally multiplied.
Let's see, what kind of message is this? —
— I still dream about this moment to this day,
— filled with a sense of accomplishment. I had survived a staggering 370 kilometers of hopeless distance.
— I was ranked number one in viewership. Everyone was cheering me on.
— Yes… I believed in it.
— I truly believed.
I casually opened an email.
A faint yellowish-green grassland stretched endlessly, a peaceful scene.
The sky, a soft blue hue, gentle sunlight streaming down.
Warm, dry wind.
In the relaxed atmosphere of the "other world," what appeared was an unexpected "reality."
<You're enjoying the other world while having murdered your lover—this is absolutely terrible. Just die already. What are you even staying alive for?>
<Killing your lover's entire family and acting like you're the main character in the other world? I'm ashamed to be Japanese. HIKARU is now a regular on Twitter's global trends. You're a national disgrace. Please, have mercy.>
<Is the air of this other world, which you're living on the power stolen from Nanaomi-chan's future, really satisfying?>
<Go straight to hell. No, even hell would be too warm for you.>
<You should've just been eaten alive while still alive.>
Every time I see you desperately clinging to life, I can't help but think how much Nanami must have wished to live too. How is it that you cling so desperately to life, yet couldn't even think of someone else's... especially your lover's... life? You're a demon. I hate you. Just die already.
— I couldn't even breathe.
Every single email was filled with insults directed at me.
Everyone wished for my death.
At first, I couldn't understand what had happened.
"Nanami... died...?"
Nanami was a childhood friend raised like siblings, not a lover—but that didn't matter. What
I knew from the message just opened was this: Nanami was dead.
And for some reason, I was accused of killing
her—
punish you for sure. Shiver in your sleep.>
petitioning the gods to make the least popular vote count. The person ranked last should
definitely face a harsh penalty. How about sending them straight to hell?>
possible.>
How does it feel to be the most hated person in human history? You did that much. Understand it. Understand it, then end your life.
Every message was filled with hostility toward me.
The righteous hammer of justice against the worst murderer I couldn't even touch.
I couldn't understand it.
I thought someone would support me.
Maybe some were just watching for fun, but I still believed that even so, people would be glad I survived.
"Nanami... is she... dead...? Was she like that...? She hasn't come to this world...? Uncle... Auntie... are they gone too...?"
I murmured it, not to anyone in particular.
Just as I, who should be dead, ended up in another world, Nanami must also be in another world.
That's what I believed.
That's what I wished.
In this foreign world where I knew no one, meeting Nanaomi again was the only goal I had.
So, the old man and the old woman never came out that day because they were already dead?
...But once I saw the message,
I realized it.
It should have been immediately clear that Nanaomi hadn't come to this world.
Whether I broke into the house or called the police, it would have been obvious right away.
And there, the bodies of Nanaomi and her parents lay.
Only my shoes remained at the front door.
The real culprit must have either escaped skillfully or framed me.
"Hah...!"
My stomach heaved.
The direct cruelty of it, the fact that Nanaomi and her parents were dead.
Before those two facts, I was struck with a shock so intense it felt like the ground itself was trembling.
I couldn't even stand, collapsing right where I stood.
I couldn't breathe properly.
I had known, deep down...
that Nanami had died.
I had seen her motionless, lifeless.
But I had wanted to believe otherwise.
I had no choice but to believe.
Believing that Nanami had made it to this side kept me going, gave me the strength to push through this forest.
I was barely managing to keep myself together.
I could only move forward by refusing to look back.
Your twin sisters are said to be incredibly smart. Well, they probably don’t have a future anymore anyway.
Your family’s house burned down physically.
"Why… what’s going on…? What the hell is this?!"
Tears wouldn’t stop.
I was so focused on just surviving myself that I hadn’t even thought about what was happening to Earth.
But what could I do?
I was suddenly sent to another world too, you know!
I was killed!
The only reason I’m here now is either luck—or bad luck.
I didn’t ask to come here…!
I had so much I wanted to say.
But those words never made it to my voice.
Emotions poured out, and on top of that, new feelings kept rewriting the old ones.I wouldn't kill Nanami... I couldn't possibly do something like that...! She's my childhood friend...! How could I kill someone who's been with me since birth, someone I've always been with...! I died too, Nanami died! I never meant to end up here like this!"
I didn't even realize I was shouting at no one in particular.
"I went to say my final goodbye to Nanami...! But then some unknown classmate appeared and stabbed me from behind! By the time I got there, Nanami was already dead...!"
It was meaningless justification.
Somewhere in my mind, I understood that perfectly.
I've seen internet outrage countless times before.
There are only two ways to stop an online firestorm: cut off the fuel supply.
What I'm doing now is like endlessly feeding fuel into the fire.
It'll only escalate further, probably."...Family? Family has nothing to do with this...! What did my family even do...!"
In the end, this otherworldly transfer that dragged the entire world into it wasn't unrelated to me.
It destroyed two families—mine and Nanami's.
The number of messages keeps growing.
Could some of them be from my parents or my sisters?
I didn't have the courage to open them.
"Damn it..."
I just wanted to vanish.
But I couldn't die.
No matter how much malice I was exposed to, the fact that I'd survived over 370 kilometers kept me from even considering death.
"An announcement from the deity: It appears a few individuals who have been transferred to another world have not noticed the location where their imported items are stored. Please tap on the 'Carried Items' section of your status board to materialize them. Please note that any items not materialized within the next five days will be permanently erased."
It was an additional announcement from the deity.
Right, that's true—items could be brought over during the transfer to the other world.
I hadn’t had time to prepare due to the sudden transfer, so I hadn’t brought anything. Naturally, that section would be empty.
Yet I still opened it—perhaps because I had a hunch.
Tapping the "Carried Items" section on my status board caused a photo album to materialize and fall softly onto the ground.
"…………huh……"
A pastel-colored photo album.
The very one Nanami had last held tightly against her chest—
And it was the last thing I touched.
I picked it up with trembling fingers and opened the cover.
"Nanami... idiot... what were you planning to do with something like this in another world...?"
A photo taken when we were both in elementary school, standing side by side with our parents.
A photo from the time I fell into the pond at Destiny Land.
A photo of the time when Nanami and my younger sisters fell asleep after playing games until we were exhausted.
A photo taken when we stood together in our oversized middle school uniforms.
A photo taken when she playfully snapped a picture of me through the window while talking to me.
A photo taken when she was borrowed as my "childhood friend" during a costume race.
A photo from the day we all went together to check the high school admission results.
In the photo, Nanami was smiling.
I was smiling too, in the photo.
"Guh... damn it..."
I lost it.
Looking at the photo, I felt the truth become clearer.
It was as if everything about Earth had been a lie.
Being in a completely different world—the so-called alternate world—I couldn’t deny that I felt this way.
But the fact that this album, which should have been taken by Nanami, was here proved that Nanami had died and never came over.
―Ahaha
―Kusku
Someone was laughing at me, crying uncontrollably.
They were staring at me with curious eyes.
Laughing at me for pretending to grieve when I was the one who killed her.
Laughing at me for being the one who killed her.
Laughing at me, just an ordinary, unremarkable high school student with no special talents.
Nanami in the photo was laughing too.
Me in the photo was laughing as well.
―Ahaha
――Kya kya kya
A mocking voice comes from far away.
Right next to my ear, a mocking voice comes.
――I must have broken at that moment.
In bright places, I began to feel stares.
Stares filled with hostility and — malice — and curiosity.
"Darkness... Fog."
Live viewers: 1 billion.
On Earth, a billion people are sending me hostility.
They're eagerly waiting for me to fail.
Waiting for me to fall helplessly to the ground and die a wretched death —
I blocked those stares with darkness.
Even in this deep, deep darkness, those stares cannot reach me.
I closed the status board and began walking.
I couldn't bring myself to head toward the fortress.
I wanted to sink into some deep, endless darkness.
I'd hide my breath in a place beyond anyone's sight.
So I couldn't be hurt by anyone anymore.